Monday, October 25, 2010

Not All Who Wander Are Lost.

Being the nerds that we are, Jess, Melissa, Alex, and I were talking about colleges in Spanish Lit today. We were supposed to be answering questions on Rosario Castellanos' poem "Autorretrato," but we all already did them at home (again, we're nerds) so we spent all of Spanish class chatting in English.

Anyways, I was talking to Alex about how he already knew exactly what college he was EDing, why he loved that college so much, and what he planned on studying there. I told him that I admired how he had his goals set out for him and knew what he needed to do to achieve them. I, on the other hand, fear that I will never reach my dreams -- mainly because I don't know what those dreams are yet. I feel like it's so much easier to be successful when you already know what you want. So what do the rest of us do? Close our eyes, make a wish, and hope a shooting star happens to be passing by?

Shirley gave me a bookmark today. It made me feel warm and fuzzy inside because she didn't buy it for any other reason than, "It reminded me of you." Funny how the smallest gestures mean the most. Anyways, the bookmark had a Henry David Thoreau quote on it, written in bold, capitalized, orange font: "GO CONFIDENTLY IN THE DIRECTION OF YOUR DREAMS!" It seems so simple. Here, browse around in the Dreams aisle. Pick a Future off the shelf and make your purchase at the Wish register. Quite a painless procedure -- the prices are pretty good too!

...I can't help it. The world is too big, and I'm only so little. How do you expect me to know what I want?


To be honest, I kind of want it all.

1 comment:

  1. i love AP kids. we do unnecessary work outside of class and sleep at absurd hours so we can converse with our fellow nerds during lass instead of doing work lol!

    while knowing exactly what your dreams are can be helpful in pursuing them, doesn't that also set you up for failure? i think that if you know EXACTLY what your dream is...if you don't fulfill those specific goals, then its like your whole life is ruined. i prefer to have a vague idea, a fuzzy outline...and then go with the flow from there =)

    idt anyone "knows" what they want. i know for a fact that i think i know what i want. or rather, i know what i think i want. either works lol! and wanting it all -- isn't that a valid dream?

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