Winter Break.

Something about tonight has left me inexplicably teary-eyed. I can't quite place my finger on what it is I'm feeling right now - sadness? disappointment? confusion? - but whatever the emotion, it has left me with a bruised heart, the kind of ache that pulses dully below the surface, harmless if untouched, but reaching deep into the past. It's just strange to come back home for winter break and discover that the people you held dearest to you, the people you believed would be your closest confidants long after high school, have changed - maybe not obviously, but in little ways that mattered to you. I love my friends, I admire them, I look up to them, they make me who I am...so I guess it's upsetting to see them with changed attitudes that conflict with my own morals. Will we walk away from each other? Who will be better off? What if this is just the beginning, what if we're still young, what if years from now I won't even remember the names of the people who, right now, I am so scared of losing?